Thursday, July 24, 2008

Blah

Blah. That sums up how I'm feeling. I thought some "SheRoos" time would be nice so I excitedly left BM with his daddy and headed out to do a little shopping. I quickly remembered that I don't like to shop and was anxious to return home. Upon returning home to a screaming baby, I quickly remembered why I went shopping.

I know I should be outside helping HeRoos in the yard while BM naps but it is so HOT out there. I have a million things I could be doing in the air conditioned house but I'm lacking one important thing-motivation.

The further I get away from my career, the more I get four-wall-itis. I really need to find something in my life that provides an outlet and gets me out of the house. I sure miss my work out partner (V, why did you have to move to Connecticut?), I miss my SLC friends and my family. With gas prices sky high, my trips to Salt Lake & Syracuse are diminishing.

I've been trying to think of things to do for me so you don't have to visit me in the funny farm. My ideas include: take a cooking class, find a job that I can go to once a week at night, take an oil painting class, take a photography class, take a water aerobics class, take a zumba dance class (even if I'm horrible at dancing), join a gym (not very practical since we have workout equipment in the basement), volunteer somewhere. All of these ideas sound great but remember how I'm missing one key thing? Who can lend me a bottle of motivation?

I was reading in a book, Baby 411, about "high maintenace" babies and I finally felt validated. It reads, "High-maintenance babies require more physical and emotional strength from their parents. These babies get walked around, rocked, and soothed more than their low maintenance friends. Parents of these babies are exhausted and frequently at wits ends. They have irrational thoughts about giving their baby up for adoption. Don't worry-you are not alone."

One positive thing I can add to this otherwise dreary post is...my calendar is full of shiny stars! Yes, my friends, I have been holding strong to my commitment and working out. The downside-I have since gained two pounds. Before you try to offer comfort by telling me muscle weighs more than fat, save yourself the keystrokes. I'm afraid the marshmallow covering my six pack is inflating.

7 comments:

Baloney said...

Had to check out your blog when I saw your comment! I started my volunteering "career" when my oldest was a baby. It was great for me and gave my husband a chance to appreciate me better (ha). Go for it. Find something that gets you out of the house and gives you a mom break!

Gin & Mike said...

I'm Blah too! During summer there is little to keep me busy. M works and I keep house! I think that you should just move to Connecticut! Or better yet we should move home. I am starting a project this week making a onesie for my nephew. Go to Michael's or Roberts and take a class on something crafty!

The one in charge said...

I remember this feeling well, I felt lost that first year or two after I stopped working and was home with Jack. I would have given anything to go back to work just for a day or two....my solution have more babies. I think I felt I needed to validate my staying at home with more children. Honestly, it just made my life crazier and gave me a lot less free time for myself. Secretly I still wish for a personally fulfilling part time job away from all this craziness!

The One said...

When Hayden goes back to school we need to start "playdates" with the boys. We could play and they could lay there. Or we could do one of the classes at The Little Gym. It's in Draper though and I know the babies don't do much there, but it might be fun for the moms.....here's a link to their schedule
http://www.thelittlegym.com/gym/schedule.aspx?gymid=104&sid=3716

The One said...

....and if you ever needed time during the day to yourself I can take BM for a couple of hours. You know I've got the set up over here for all things infant.......

Destiny said...

Maybe you could do a scrapbook of you and Heroos before BM, and then pictures of BM. When we first moved to Idaho I felt lost because I had left a really busy "important (or at least it felt that way)" job where I had lots of friends and then I was in a new place with no identity it felt like. You will find things and adjust I am sure it is hard. I know it will be a adjustment for me, and will be hard- even though I am looking forward to it. When you get it figured out let me know so I can learn from you :)
Destiny

Anonymous said...

Have something chocolate, maybe more than one something chocolate. This is where the fantasizing come into play. Go to your happy place for awhile. (A tropical island, scuba diving with HeRoos, and your honey moon.) Take deep breaths and relax. Then come back to reality to take care of B.M. Being a Mom is one of the hardest but most rewarding job ( sevice projects) you will ever experience. You just don't realize it now. But when you get as old as dirt you will. In the meantime enjoy the ride. I suggest forming a support group with other moms and their little ones and having play days with them. If a fun part time job or
new hobby or a book club (condensed versions only because of time demands) helps go for it!! Alot of Moms are experiencing the same thing. Love, G.R. P.S.Don't worry too much old woman as well as new Moms experience blah days! Start being concerned if they start turning into weeks and months.